letter to GOD

I am sorry for breaking your heart. I am sorry for the love-hate-love-hate-love relationship we have right now. I never wanted to hurt you but then, this is me. The crazy me who always hurt the one that I love. I have no one else to blame but myself. My insensitivity robs my time for you. My discontent makes me look for someone other than you. My rebellious side hurts you whenever I do not get what I want. My flight syndrome makes me hide from you.

but then how can I resist the love that you gave. everytime I stumbled you helped me up. Everytime I was down, you pull me up. Your love is more than enough. Your grace binds me to move forward.

I thought I did not deserve to be loved and then you came into my life to make me realize that I am worth loving.

You loved me despite my mistakes, You love me despite my imperfections and You continuously love me despite the pain I usually inflict you.

Why did I ever deviate from Your love. Why did I ever ask for more when You are all that I need?. Why did it took me so long to realize that You complete me. 

I am sorry for being stubborn and rebellious. Sorry for breaking your heart and I will assure you that there will be more of this pain but there is one thing that I'll ask of you. 

Please do not leave me. All I know is whenever I get lost, I will always find my way back to you. You are my first love and the greatest love of my life. I can never live without You, GOD.

I am sorry. I love you. I really do love you.