waiting.

Almost everyone thought that waiting is a bad idea. Especially when waiting entails no guarantee of success or even reward. But then again, what is the essence of success without the pangs of waiting and rejection. Sometimes it is in the process of waiting that GOD molds us until we are ready for that success.

I must admit, waiting is a tiring verb. However we must remember the promise on:
Isaiah 40:31 (New International Version)

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint. 

with this promise, instead of just waiting, we know we can hope too.
so, let us WAIT UPON THE LORD, HE NEVER FAILS

letter to GOD

I am sorry for breaking your heart. I am sorry for the love-hate-love-hate-love relationship we have right now. I never wanted to hurt you but then, this is me. The crazy me who always hurt the one that I love. I have no one else to blame but myself. My insensitivity robs my time for you. My discontent makes me look for someone other than you. My rebellious side hurts you whenever I do not get what I want. My flight syndrome makes me hide from you.

but then how can I resist the love that you gave. everytime I stumbled you helped me up. Everytime I was down, you pull me up. Your love is more than enough. Your grace binds me to move forward.

I thought I did not deserve to be loved and then you came into my life to make me realize that I am worth loving.

You loved me despite my mistakes, You love me despite my imperfections and You continuously love me despite the pain I usually inflict you.

Why did I ever deviate from Your love. Why did I ever ask for more when You are all that I need?. Why did it took me so long to realize that You complete me. 

I am sorry for being stubborn and rebellious. Sorry for breaking your heart and I will assure you that there will be more of this pain but there is one thing that I'll ask of you. 

Please do not leave me. All I know is whenever I get lost, I will always find my way back to you. You are my first love and the greatest love of my life. I can never live without You, GOD.

I am sorry. I love you. I really do love you. 

You Reign - Citipointe Live in Manila

"You reign, over all the earth we're singing
You reign, justice and peace, You bring it
You reign
Holy One
You reign.."

Christian concerts amaze me. I guess its not the band that makes the concert special but the songs of praise that comes from the mouth of the hundreds and thousands of worshipers who attended. 

Christian concerts are not just about the bands who will perform but its all about CHRIST.

Usually, we'll hear the name of the band being shouted and praised, here, all we hear is CHRIST. :)

In this world, we ought to make a stand and standing is not an easy task especially when we are tired of work, studying, problems, etc. Sometimes, we have to lean too. Lean to the Master and Creator so He could help us live our purpose- worshiping Him with everything that we have. :)

so if you are a writer, write.

a singer, sing.

a dancer, dance.

a speaker, speak.

just make sure that you do it in mind of the GIVER of the gift. 

He deserves to reign in our hearts. :)

my prayer

my prayer

I am sorry for breaking your heart. I am sorry for the love-hate-love-hate-love relationship we have right now. I never wanted to hurt you but then, this is me. The crazy me who always hurt the one that I love. I have no one else to blame but myself. My insensitivity robs my time for you. My discontent makes me look for someone other than you. My rebellious side hurts you whenever I do not get what I want. My flight syndrome makes me hide from you.

but then how can I resist the love that you gave. everytime I stumbled you helped me up. Everytime I was down, you pull me up. Your love is more than enough. Your grace binds me to move forward.

I thought I did not deserve to be loved and then you came into my life to make me realize that I am worth loving.

You loved me despite my mistakes, You love me despite my imperfections and You continuously love me despite the pain I usually inflict you.

Why did I ever deviate from Your love. Why did I ever ask for more when You are all that I need?. Why did it took me so long to realize that You complete me. 

I am sorry for being stubborn and rebellious. Sorry for breaking your heart and I will assure you that there will be more of this pain but there is one thing that I'll ask of you. 

Please do not leave me. All I know is whenever I get lost, I will always find my way back to you. You are my first love and the greatest love of my life. I can never live without You, GOD.

I am sorry. I love you. I really do love you. 

my story

my story. :)


I am an extrovert. I love to socialize and be with people. I can easily befriend anyone and share a few laughs with them. I am a strong person and  go-getter. Usually I get the things I want and I am happy.


most of the time...


*this is the description I usually hear people say about me. Most of the time they are right, those words listed there is who I am when I am with them.


alone. I am not.


alone I am a child seeking for attention and love. a plant waiting to be watered. a warrior tired of the endless battle. a soldier injured.


A lot of times I do not want to be left alone because I will feel weak and inferior but quiet times are inevitable. GOD will always tug into our hearts and remind us that there will always be a whole that can never be filled by material things, friends, family or achievements.


Only GOD can fill that void. 


I wanted to believe that but if GOD is really up there then why:


Numerous times I tried to hear Him out and failed. A lot of times I asked but seemed not to get an answer and countless times I asked Him to get rid of the hurt and spare me from pain but He chose not to.


The answers came not at the time I wanted them to but at the time I least expected it. GOD's timing is not limited to my time but in His time. It is always perfect.


I realized that He wanted me to be alone so I can have my time with Him (not in a selfish way but in a way like how our parents wanted to talk to us just to hear us out and so we can her their advices and teachings.)


I got His point that maybe I just say that I am giving Him my time when I am not really focused on deepening my relationship with Him.


However, the question on why He allows us to get hurt seemed to be one of the toughest lesson I had to learn. Maybe because no one wants to get hurt and I am not exempted.


the logic is simple.
before a child learns to walk, he or she stumbles first and usually fell and got hurt in the process of learning. 


In life, trials, hurts and pain are part of learning for we can never say we are truly happy if we never became sad. 


GOD allows us to be hurt deeply so He can use us mightily.


*as an example: at this moment, I am feeling down but I chose to share this encouragement to those who are feeling the same or greater pain so that we may learn from each other. :)


GOD moves in mysterious ways. :) 
GOD bless.

change

Key of C.


I always wanted to sing but singing never wanted me. So I thought. It was only after 8 years that I found out I can transpose songs to the range where I can sing it the way I am supposed to. It took me 8 years to be insecure to those who can sing in a soprano or whatever high tone that I never tried singing and enriching whatever I had.


Just like in life. Sometimes we get too insecure or intimidated by what others do or we are simply envious that they can do things well with little effort (or they can do things better than us period). That we tend to forget that we too have a certain talent waiting to be used and utilized.


ah. used and utilized. this words may be the same but their meaning and significance differ. Use means simply take hold or deploy anything as a way to accomplish something while utilize meant practical and effective use. 


On a practical note, we can speak (use: communicate with other people) but we can testify (tell others how our lives changed or how we had grown). 


So this blog is an example of this scenario. I can write but this time I want to write about how Christ changed my life and how He continues to change my life. :)


I am hoping you'll let Him change yours too. :)
enjoy reading. :)

Key of C

Key of C.


A lot of things may come into our minds when we associate words with the letter C.


Chocolates. 
Coffee
Cheetos.
Championship.
Cheerleading.
Chorva
Chenes.
Chukaran.
Chastity
Celibacy
Church
Christ.


Yeah. This blog will be about C. The last and most certainly not the least of the words stated above. Its all about CHRIST.


This blog will not be all about Christ as the world describes Him to be but how Christ is in our lives and how He affects everything.


So I'll tell you what to expect.


1. this blog is made by a human, just like you who lives a life full of ups and downs and has a lot of questions that doesn't seem to have an answer.


2. this blog will tell you common problems and realizations that come along with it.


3. this blog may seem to be about the author (me) but please do focus on the journey I am having with Him (Christ) so you can at least learn a thing or two from my mistakes.


4. This blog is all about C. Christ. :)
not Christ the churchy way or Christ the disciplinarian but Christ the friend, the lover, the brother, the Savior and the Redeemer.

Joy Binay