my story

my story. :)


I am an extrovert. I love to socialize and be with people. I can easily befriend anyone and share a few laughs with them. I am a strong person and  go-getter. Usually I get the things I want and I am happy.


most of the time...


*this is the description I usually hear people say about me. Most of the time they are right, those words listed there is who I am when I am with them.


alone. I am not.


alone I am a child seeking for attention and love. a plant waiting to be watered. a warrior tired of the endless battle. a soldier injured.


A lot of times I do not want to be left alone because I will feel weak and inferior but quiet times are inevitable. GOD will always tug into our hearts and remind us that there will always be a whole that can never be filled by material things, friends, family or achievements.


Only GOD can fill that void. 


I wanted to believe that but if GOD is really up there then why:


Numerous times I tried to hear Him out and failed. A lot of times I asked but seemed not to get an answer and countless times I asked Him to get rid of the hurt and spare me from pain but He chose not to.


The answers came not at the time I wanted them to but at the time I least expected it. GOD's timing is not limited to my time but in His time. It is always perfect.


I realized that He wanted me to be alone so I can have my time with Him (not in a selfish way but in a way like how our parents wanted to talk to us just to hear us out and so we can her their advices and teachings.)


I got His point that maybe I just say that I am giving Him my time when I am not really focused on deepening my relationship with Him.


However, the question on why He allows us to get hurt seemed to be one of the toughest lesson I had to learn. Maybe because no one wants to get hurt and I am not exempted.


the logic is simple.
before a child learns to walk, he or she stumbles first and usually fell and got hurt in the process of learning. 


In life, trials, hurts and pain are part of learning for we can never say we are truly happy if we never became sad. 


GOD allows us to be hurt deeply so He can use us mightily.


*as an example: at this moment, I am feeling down but I chose to share this encouragement to those who are feeling the same or greater pain so that we may learn from each other. :)


GOD moves in mysterious ways. :) 
GOD bless.